Typing for typing sake / PROCRASTINATION

 

You know, a few months ago I decided to give this blog thing a try again and I was excited to get started, I even made a first post for the month of January. I had a goal in mind to do a post every month at least but really? Who was I kidding! lol. I have yet to make another post, even though I went all out and made a LONG ass list of blog topics to write about.

Well for the past two days (July 8 and today July 9 2014) I have been home sick with a stomach bug. Yay me. The mere thought of food made my stomach lurch and curl with pain. Mind you, I will say that I did quite enjoy the 2 days off of work, who wouldn’t lol, I have been here at home keeping my ass quite and trying to find food that my stomach could handle. I have been wanting to write both for this blog and my book and yet I still have not made a post nor written a single word for the book. What is it with procrastination? I seriously struggle with it. I have actually come to realise that it seems I find the idea of having to do something MORE exciting than actually doing the thing itself… does that even make sense? It does to me anyway.

Year 5774 – The Year of the Door

At a recent workshop I attended, hosted by B.F.A. Ministry, I learned that this year, 2014, is the year 5774 on the Hebraic Calendar. We were told that 5774 means ‘Door’ in hebrew and so this year is: “The Year of the Door.” One interpretation is that this is the year of “New opportunities”, ‘New Beginnings”, a year for change. This was of course a very optimistic outlook which I happily embraced!

After hearing this, I decided to research this bit of information to find out more. In doing so I came across an article on http://www.awakenations.org which gave some really interesting information about the Hebrew Alphabet, numbers and meanings. It explained that: “The Hebrew alphabet assigns each letter a numerical value which also has a pictorial meaning.”

It explained that Ayin dalet is the number 74 as  Ayin  is 70 and Dalet is 4. To quote: “Ayin evolves from a picture of an ‘eye’ and as a metaphor speaks of ‘seeing’ and ‘vision.’ Dalet means ‘open door.’ ” It goes on to also explain that  the hebrew word “Derek” is another word derived from “Dalet” which means a “path” or “way to life.”

After reading all this information I can, and do, see this year being “The Year of Beginnings.” It is time now  that I (or we) transition and  get out of this rut! We have to change in order to be better right? Of course! I have learned that the ONE thing that is constant in life is CHANGE. We have got to keep moving forward and THIS is the year! “The Year of the Door.” The year we see our path in life unfold.

BUT we must accept it and be willing to move… or else it will just pass us by!

As of late, I have felt stuck in a serious rut for the longest time, (this started since since I came back home in 2010 and even more so in the past couple of months.) After that workshop I truly felt liberated and very optimistic. It is time I leave the places of confinement and move into my assignment.

From the young age of 14 I was lucky to have realised what my purpose in life was; it was to “Capture God’s Beauty.” That was the phrase that came to me at that time. Yes during that time I was shooting mainly nature but, of course, over time my subject matter expanded and so that phrase came to also mean even ‘things” and “people”. Including things that were man made as all things are inspired through God. Everything in this world IS BEAUTIFUL.

After that workshop my purpose evolved even more. I have not been photographing recently and have really let my passion go 😦 With my return to Jamaica it has been very difficult to get my footing in the photography world. It is very different from the states and I miss what I was doing greatly and often I wonder IF I will ever get back to where I was.

That workshop re-instilled my purpose in life… my path… as photography was the first thing that came to me when we were discussing our Life Purpose.

My phrase has now become: “To Capture Gods Beauty, share it with the world, make an impact and move people.” THAT I know for sure is my purpose in life. I want to move people with my art and make an impact on the world.

With that, I wonder what really will come of this year. Will it really be the year I find my way back onto my path in life?  I hope it will and to be honest it have been looking like it will thus far. (keeping positive)

In closing I ask you this. Do you know what your Life Purpose is? Are you on that path? Have you lost sight?

Take a moment to really reflect on your life and maybe take me up on my advice to research this whole “Year of the Door” thing. You never know what you might discover!

Sincerely,

Crazy A