Life is Ever-Changing…

Hey guys,

So one morning I did a little voice recording of me… talking.. It was pretty strange to me as it was the first time but I was inspired in that moment to do a blog post and well clearly I couldn’t since I was driving. (Inspiration sometimes comes at the most awkward times… lol)

I have been tossing up wether I will post that recording or if I will just refer to it as a transcript. Maybe the later for now as it’s the first one and kinda raw and needs some editing.

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Anyhow, for the past 2 mornings I have changed my route to work as the one I took before, though relatively quicker, was 5x more stressful! There is this one long strip (Barbican Road for those who live here) where the traffic is but it moves, which is good. The issue is that, on that road there are two side roads where cars take advantage of ANY inch of space between you and the car in front of you. So sometimes 6 people drive out on you at one time causing me to curse and get angry, blow my horn while simultaneously watching for: 1. Not hitting the car in front of me when I try to close the space to not let them in. 2. Make sure I don’t let them in while also making sure I don’t get hit by them! And 3. Hoping and praying the person behind me doesn’t hit me!

The drivers on the Jamaican roads have no respect for the law or anyone else for that matter. There is simply too much stress to deal with on the roads. This sends my BP sky high, and I start my mornings with anger and frustration! Really not the best way to start days and it affects the rest of the day too because the drive home is the SAME bloody ordeal, so I changed that route as well. Nah sah! mi cyan tek it no more. I have found 2 other routes that yes have a little more traffic but they are 10x LESS stressing and that’s what I need in my life right now. Less stress. I have too much emotional stress happening with me. One (1) major stressor being the fact that my mother and I are not on speaking terms.. my choice. why? Well simply because quite frankly she doesn’t give a damn that she has hurt my feelings and does not see the need or reason to apologise. I don’t care that it’s a mother daughter relationship. It is a basic aspect of respect from one human being to another. (Anyhow, now and here is NOT the time for that discussion) Two (2) Being work as it is a very rough time right now and (3) being the fact that my bestie has moved away for a year and my social life has literally DROP DEAD dwl. (Not trying to make you feel guilty – mi just luv yuh)

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Year 5774 – The Year of the Door

At a recent workshop I attended, hosted by B.F.A. Ministry, I learned that this year, 2014, is the year 5774 on the Hebraic Calendar. We were told that 5774 means ‘Door’ in hebrew and so this year is: “The Year of the Door.” One interpretation is that this is the year of “New opportunities”, ‘New Beginnings”, a year for change. This was of course a very optimistic outlook which I happily embraced!

After hearing this, I decided to research this bit of information to find out more. In doing so I came across an article on http://www.awakenations.org which gave some really interesting information about the Hebrew Alphabet, numbers and meanings. It explained that: “The Hebrew alphabet assigns each letter a numerical value which also has a pictorial meaning.”

It explained that Ayin dalet is the number 74 as  Ayin  is 70 and Dalet is 4. To quote: “Ayin evolves from a picture of an ‘eye’ and as a metaphor speaks of ‘seeing’ and ‘vision.’ Dalet means ‘open door.’ ” It goes on to also explain that  the hebrew word “Derek” is another word derived from “Dalet” which means a “path” or “way to life.”

After reading all this information I can, and do, see this year being “The Year of Beginnings.” It is time now  that I (or we) transition and  get out of this rut! We have to change in order to be better right? Of course! I have learned that the ONE thing that is constant in life is CHANGE. We have got to keep moving forward and THIS is the year! “The Year of the Door.” The year we see our path in life unfold.

BUT we must accept it and be willing to move… or else it will just pass us by!

As of late, I have felt stuck in a serious rut for the longest time, (this started since since I came back home in 2010 and even more so in the past couple of months.) After that workshop I truly felt liberated and very optimistic. It is time I leave the places of confinement and move into my assignment.

From the young age of 14 I was lucky to have realised what my purpose in life was; it was to “Capture God’s Beauty.” That was the phrase that came to me at that time. Yes during that time I was shooting mainly nature but, of course, over time my subject matter expanded and my and so that phrase came to also mean even thing. Including things that were man made as all things are inspired through God. Everything in this world IS BEAUTIFUL.

After that workshop my purpose evolved even more. I have not been photographing recently and have really let my passion go 😦 With my return to Jamaica it has been very difficult to get my footing in the photography world. It is very different from the states and I miss what I was doing greatly and often I wonder IF I will ever get back to where I was.

That workshop re-instilled my purpose in life… my path… as photography was the first thing that came to me when we were discussing our Life Purpose.

My phrase has now become: “To Capture Gods Beauty, share it with the world, make an impact and move people.” THAT I know for sure is my purpose in life. I want to move people with my art and make an impact on the world.

With that, I wonder what really will come of this year. Will it really be the year I find my way back onto my path in life?  I hope it will and to be honest it have been looking like it will thus far. (keeping positive)

In closing I ask you this. Do you know what your Life Purpose is? Are you on that path? Have you lost sight?

Take a moment to really reflect on your life and maybe take me up on my advice to research this whole “Year of the Door” thing. You never know what you might discover!

Sincerely,

Crazy A