To My Step-mom Sanchia

 

Dear Sanchia

With dad:
You were always there right by his side,
Ready to help taking it all in stride.
Whatever the need may have been,
You gave him your all and dived right in.
You gave so much of yourself, so unselfishly,
It makes me think of the person I want to be.

 

You were his shinning light,
Down to the day his soul took flight.
I want you to know though,
That you are never alone.
For when you cry I cry,
No matter how hard I try.
I can feel your tears you see,
As if they flow through me.

 

The love you gave dad throughout the years,
Tells me of the load that your soul now bears.
But no matter what the future may bring,
I want you to remember one last thing:
Dads soul is now set free,
Sailing away across the sea.
To you my dear Sanchi,
Forever grateful I shall be.

 

Love, Panda Rose

 

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-Crazy A

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IT’S A BEAUTIFUL DAY

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Recently an aunt of mine shared a video with me via What’s App. It was the song: “Beautiful Day ” by Jermaine Edwards. A local artist. Son of a pastor.

She shared this video with me one morning randomly after my fathers recent passing. I listened to the song for the 1st time and had to stop it immediately after hearing the 2nd line: “Many people died and never saw this day.” I immediately thought about my dad and started crying.

Eventually though, I listened to the song in full, letting the tears come if they did, and slowly but surely I fell in love with the song. This song is so up-lifting. It always brings a smile to my face and a beat to my feet. I have now made it a part of my morning routine where I play it loud on my balcony as I look out and take in the view… And everyday is truly “A Beautiful Day.”

Something that makes me feel so good I knew I had to share with you all. So here, I’m sharing the direct youtube link to the video with you so that you can listen to it and hopefully love it as much I as I do. (I’m unable to upload the actual video here in the post)

My favorite part is: “Thank you for sunshine, Thank you for rain. Thank you for Joy, Thank you for pain…..” Everything that happens to us, GOOD & BAD help to shape us and I’m grateful for it all.

Click: –> Beautiful Day

So plug in your ear phones or turn up your speakers. Follow along with the lyrics and let every word resonate deep in your soul as they do for me.

Have a beautiful day my followers.

Love,

Crazy A

 

What/who is a Spoonie?

 

Ok, so you may have clicked on this tab wondering “What on earth is a spoonie?” “Is this girl crazy?” Well … I am, – as my close friends would agree – to some extent lol Life would be boring otherwise! DUH!! We all gotta have a little crazy in us to get through this life.

Anyhow, on a serious note now, a “Spoonie” is a very special word. It may sound like some cutesy word but sadly it isn’t really a “cute” thing when you get to know what it is about. Sure it is a cute sounding word but really it is a way of referring to something that actually, is not so cute at all. A spoonie is someone who is sick… in my case with Fibromyalgia. It refers to anyone who suffers from any sort of disability or illness; whether it be fibro, down-syndrome, lupus or any physical alignment.

You see, the spoon theory was coined by this amazing lady Christine Miserandino. I will give you an overall gist of the spoon theory but it is best to read it from the original author so please check out her blog: But you don’t look sick

So I started typing out the spoon theory attempting to explain it step by step but realised it is much better understood by ready the original post about. However, I will try to summarise it as best as I can.

Christine and her friend were at a restaurant one day when her friend asked her what it was like to have lupus. She knew that this was the moment that she had to explain it otherwise it would be lost on her forever.  She quickly grabbed all of the spoons on the table and even on the other tables as well in the restaurant and handed her friend a bouquet of spoons. Whether it was a bouquet of spoons, forks, knives etc is irrelevant as it just so happened to be the choice for the explanation.

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Don’t Take Anything or Anyone for Granted

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Last week was a week filled with sadness… I had found out that a college mate of mine had died. He was only 27 yrs old.. The same age as me.

He was brutally murdered by a friend of his who got into an angry jealous rage over his own girl friend and attacked my beloved friend with a butcher and serrated steak knife. In an article the man who killed my friend said “I just wanted him to die”  I was in shock. My friend ran from door to door screaming for help… he was never a fighter, right up to the day he died. People who had heard the screaming said that he heard my friend say: “I will not fight you..”

How can people be so evil??? What is going on in this world?? I feel as though the Anti-Christ is here, Living and Walking among us!! How else can you explain all the evil, war, deaths, murders, crazy people attacking and attempting to eat another human being??!!! WTF It is scary what is going on in the world. Murdering another human being is nothing casual but i have to say, even in the old days people were never murdered so brutally as they are today!

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